Giving...Something...Getting Something

Big ups to James Morrison for fueling this post. After a hard night of explosive emotions and words, I needed to release.

In life we all are looking for that "something". What it is exactly varies from person to person and experience to experience. All we really know is that when we get "it" every piece will seem as if it has fallen into place. All will be right in our lives. The other day, during a late night conversation with a friend. A statement poured from his lips so brutally honest, it hit home immediately. "I don't know what I want to do with my life". And in that instant, I attempted to console him in his time of gray. As I awoke the next morning, I realized, I don't know what my something is. Where is my something? What the hell am I going to do?

I have this great plan for when I leave school. But that's all it is at the moment is a plan. Will this plan help me get my "something"? I closed my eyes and felt a fear and anxiety so surreal. How can I get "something" when I don't know what it is? Was all this work I've done so far in vain? So easily I can tell others about their quest for "something", but when I talk to myself all the lines run together and the ink on the blueprints start to run.

So I'm terrified, and ill-prepared. Even with all this motivation and planning, I'm still in the middle of the sea with no map and a broken oar. Where do I go from here? What do I do? How will I reach "something"?

'Til next time