Happy Me Week!?? [meh..shrug]

Ladies and gentlemen I was told that this week was my week. "ME WEEK". WTF does that mean? I have no earthly idea, but I will do what I can to milk it for what is worth. I'm in class right now re-evaluating my scholar flow..realizing that my classmates are nosy as hell. Get off my computer screen! It is ME week. I will say what I feel and walk away once my feelings are fully expressed and I am satisfied. Happy ME week to me! (I guess.....[shrug])

'Til next time

Shaken not Stirred

So in the middle of academic chaos,I had a minor emotional snag today. Since my midterm will cover changing patients thoughts from neg to pos...hmm you would think I could have recovered faiirrrlly quick. Yea about that. So I kinda did....kinda backslid..whatever. I realize that I am the shaken coca cola bottle everyone talks about. Letting everything just build up til it explodes. I intend to do the "oh shit i shook my bottle its gonna get everywhere unless I hold my hands like this" cover (hyppppottheeticallyy speaking) Yeah because I'm so not into cleaning up the mess. This was a random post. In the morning (later much later) I may feel different.....then I will tell you to disregard this. HMMMMMMMM...

'til next time

Restless Energy

I find that I have so many things to do....and so many things I don't have to...Does that make sense? Sometimes I find that things don't have to be done right away...so bam! put off til' whenever. And then there's times when there's so much on my plate that I just go into overdrive. Now...I'm at a crux. There's things to do...there's some time...I feel restless...I'm getting bored. I want to plunge into Save Myself Mode. I was going on a rescue mission today but that was aborted due to poor planning. (poor little brother) ...Hmm let's see..I can be scholarly for a few more hours...on a Friday night..or I can run around in the melting streets (yay I'm so over the snow) and get into some "good trouble". Decisions. Whatever I choose I may have to go at alone because I took hiatus from all that involves people (that I know....for the most part....well just a few..Look I need some me time!)

Clock is ticking away. Let's see what I come up with.

Til' next time

mediiccatiooonn

It's 8pm and im sitting in class wondering why I even bothered to walk through the door. Am I learning? Yeaahhh...but do I feel like complete ish...yeeaaaahhh. Somehow when I read the doctor's paperwork I took 3 days bed rest as ..HEY GO DO SHIT!...no..so not what she meant. In fact when I read it over, I'm not supposed to be fully active yet. Hmmm? Active? Like walking in the snow to the subway and catching two trains to get to class and walking uphill and hauling books around? YEahhhhh...not supposed to be doing that. Well...at least I go to my doc tmw and can bitch about all the pain, and stress, and yada yada yada.

Class has about 40 minutes before we call it a rap. hmmm...my notes are hefty. I would really like to be heavily medicated right now. Then nothing would matter. The pain in my head..the heaviness in my arms. It would all float away. We can dream can't we..

Update update upppdddaaatte!

What we have here is a new beginning. Eureka! New year new beginning...noooottt exactly. I think its actually been a long time in the making. Wait!!! ...I must start off with informing everyone of where I have been these past months. On a journey no doubt my loves. I've entered a new chapter of my life. Embarking on a new path. Ok ok enough with the spiritual, deep, blah blah yada yada yada....

I changed my place of residence. Yeah def had to get a change in scenery for my sanity. However, once again my patience is being tested in the very place where I lie my head. No bueno! ...Hmm..ok oh yeah a lot of ppl were wondering how my grad school endeavors were going. Pretty damn good if I do say so myself. I'm still the scholar I've always been, even with added stress.

Ah ha! Guess what? I'm in now content and comfortably in a relationship. Would you look at that! It seems the things that stumble upon your path are more wonderful than the things you seek. BAM! LOL....but all is well in that aspect.


Now the focus is on moving (again)...getting another job (to add to the 2 I have)..and TADA starting my event planning business (oooohhh cool right?)

Ok I swear that I will post more...(I always do this right?) New Year..clean slate..

'Til next time (might be sooner than you think ;))

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

BOREDOM!!!!

is that clear enough!!!

OK I'M DONE NOW....

'Til next time

Catch up & a pansy story

OMG ...the schedule I have gives me little time for the blog time I used to love so much. Hmpfh! Luckily I have a twitter account. But the emptiness is still there (lol). So the other day this homeless man gave me a pansy. "Oh how nice". I looked at his fingernails. There were fresh with dirty. He clearly had just pulled the flowers in his hand from somewhere. But with the day I had, I didn't care. I was happy to take the illegally plucked deep purple piece of kindness. So I traded him. A pansy for smile and a dollar. I don't know if it was an even exchange, but hey life kicks like that sometimes. Another girl got a flower too. She smiled like I did and kindly handed him a bill herself. I think she was having the same day I was. She sniffed her yellow and purple flower and looked out the subway car window. I wondered was she thinking the same thoughts I was. "I needed that. If only it didn't come from a stranger. I'll take it though." I stepped off the train at Metro Center with my testing suitcase and purse (fresh with a Cold/flu like symptoms) that I hadn't thought about while I was looking at my flower. I put it in my pocket. I wanted to pull it out and tell someone about it later. I guess I got snapped back into reality of my assignments, work, and all that kills a happy buzz, because a day later I went to look for my pansy....and it was gone.

'Til next time